Hey, je sais que tu ne verras probablement jamais ce message...Mais je le fais pour moi, j'en ai besoin pour passer à autre chose. Comment on en est arrivé là hein? On a tellement merdé tous les deux. Il fallait s'y attendre aussi, pendant toutes ces années on n'a fait que se détruire l'un l'autre, on jouait à savoir lequel finirait le plus blessé et au final on s'est tous les deux brûlé les ailes, pas vrai? Je sais que je suis celle qui a causé le plus de dégâts et je regrette. J'ai fini par m'en rendre compte tu sais et c'est pourquoi je t'ai laissé partir. C'était violent et on a tous les deux dit des choses qu'on regrette mais c'est mieux comme ça. Je me demande ce que tu fais en ce moment, si tu penses encore à moi parfois ou si je te manque un peu. Je me demande si tu l'aimes elle et si t'es plus heureux sans moi.. J'ai réussi à me reconstruire tu sais, comme je le fais à chaque fois. Je vais aller mieux, je voulais juste te dire au revoir une dernière fois.
"I can't believe I ever fell for someone like you" I know I was being selfish. You told me you were in love with me and I told you I only needed a friend. I know I was wrong to do that to you but it didn't give you the right to hurt me like that. We were friends and I trusted you. After 4 years how could you turn your back on me so easily? You fucking broke my heart and I pretended I didn't care.
Since I was born, everyone has always told me who I was supposed to be, how I should feel and behave but no one ever asked me who I really was. I went to university because that's what I was supposed to do. They never asked if what they wanted for me was what I had in mind and I never had the courage to tell them. I wanna travel, I want to meet people and discover the world. I wanna live with passion, do something I love and make some memories. I don't wanna get stuck here with a job i don't like and get married to someone just because of what my family wants. I wanna be free of everything and everyone but I can't. I can't.
I never show when I'm hurt but I am every time, I hate feeling weak, I've never been in love and I'm not sure I'm capable of that, i love drinking tea, People never notice me, I've hated myself since I was a kid, I love tvshows, I have a crush on someone who I think likes my sister, I'm a quiet person, people think i'm "cold", I have so many secrets it's killing me, I love animals so much, I've lost most of my friends the last two years, i always disappoint my parents even when I try not to, I love sunsets, I love reading books, I have trust issues, I always feel alone, I'm not happy, I'm nostalgic, I miss my best friend, I hate school, I lie a lot, I'm not the kind of person people miss